Friday, January 25, 2008


  • Have you ever sang a song with intentionally altered lyrics so many times you forget the real lyrics? We sing "Psycho Baby, qu'est-ce que c'est*" to Natalie all the time. It is an AWESOME song to sing to babies. They are psycho A LOT, and the rest of the lyrics are useful, too: "Fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa**... better run run run run run away." Yesterday I heard the original on the radio and was baffled to hear the original "Killer".
  • Natalie loves music - she always has. She's starting to "sing" more and more these days, though there's very little tune to her singing - it's more like spoken word performance. She does, however, like to create lullabyes on her bathtub xylophone. She bangs on a key over and over, hollering "Lullabye! Lullabye!" VERY soothing.
  • The other day in the car, Natalie asked for a song but it took me a LONG time to figure out what she wanted. She said, and this is a direct quote/transliteration, "Something ham run away." Can you guess the song?
*Which I would spell "kess ca say" because I don't speak that weird language. "Qu'est-ce que c'est"?!?!?!?!?!? WTF?
**I think the French spell it "fha's fha fhasq...".

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Now with picture!

Houston, we have a heartbeat!

We're calling it "Carbo" since Jen's been eating nothing but bagels....

Monday, January 21, 2008


Sorry for the silence. Both of the adults in the household have had colds, which has made keeping up with the younger member of the household more exhausting. We also have an ultrasound tomorrow morning, about which we are becoming increasingly apprehensive. One way or another we should have something to say tomorrow, though.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

The Spinning Wheel

The past few days have brought more than a few moments of deja vu, except it's more like being Alice and going through to the other side of the looking glass.

Friday night, we left Natalie at bedtime with a babysitter for the first time ever. Up until now, she's only ever been cared for by a family member or J&J, the other family we swap care with. J has been taking care of her since she was four months old, and I half-seriously believe that Natalie thinks she's a third mom (and she definitely tries to call the other J "daddy" but it weirds us all out!). But my stepfather turned 80 this week and we went out to dinner at a tres posh French restaurant past Natalie's bedtime, so we had a neighbor's daughter, K, come and stay with her. Although Natalie knows K, she has not been cared for by her previously, and therefore cried pathetically, reaching for us in a way that mangled our hearts as we left. Cait was tense and worried for most of the night, and I dealt with it by compartmentalizing it and trying really hard not to think about it, but we did manage to stay for the entire dinner -- and only called once (she did not pick up*, but we'd told her it was ok not to). Dinner was, by the way, outstanding.

As we approached our front door, I was overwhelmed by memories of my years and years of babysitting, with the jarring knowledge that this time I was not listening for the key at the door, but instead turning the key in the lock. I paid K more than she was "owed" as had happened many times to me, finally understanding from the parent's perspective that I would have paid far more if I'd had it, knowing that Natalie had been well-cared for. It was indescribably odd to be the one employing the babysitter after a lifetime of being the babysitter.

As it turned out, Natalie cried for about 15 minutes after we left, but K sang to her and she fell asleep in her arms. The next morning, Natalie asked each of us repeatedly if "K come play after nap?" and we were much relieved.

Jenny and Ezra welcomed Elsie Jane into the world not quite 18 hours ago, and I have already had the privilege to meet her. (A brief pause to welcome E.J. and give MAD PROPS to her moms... she is utterly adorable and her moms are unbelievable troopers, having endured an incredibly lengthy prelabor, the rigors of childbirth and THEN a harrowing transfer to the hospital to stop Jenny from bleeding. Everyone is fine now and Elsie is as cute as a button.)

The visit, too, proved to be a bit of a time warp, both backwards and forwards, as I gazed down on the tiny being making adorable but unskilled attempts to nurse. I could hardly remember Natalie being so new (she was never so small!) and it's amusing to recall that my voracious nurser who attacks the breast like a ravenous shark was once incapable of latching on without making me feel shark-bit! At the same time I was keenly aware that if we are lucky, we'll have a tiny one of our own next fall and we will go through the whole learning curve again.

We also began the great nursery school hunt this weekend. I feel like I am applying to college all over again, which is completely absurd! All we want is a nurturing environment where Natalie can get some opportunity to socialize with other kids her age. It's thoroughly overwhelming and rather daunting to try and "win" a space when there are fewer than 10 spaces available and easily that many or more families at one of several orientations. If I think too much about it, I start to panic.

At the same time, I know it will be an eyeblink before the new baby is here (god willing), and then not so long until Natalie is the one doing the babysitting, and after that really applying to college. I'm really trying to live in the present so that I can savor what I have now, like the delicious interval this morning tickling and giggling with Natalie as we played on the couch. That's a moment I would gladly experience over and over again.

*She couldn't find the phone, as mentioned previously. Turns out I had put it on top of the laundry hamper where it was subsequently buried by clothes. And, for those who are curious, the missing poop was found on the stairs and hastily dealt with. It was, thankfully, a very self-contained turdlet.

Saturday, January 12, 2008


At 6 weeks, the extra B vitamins Jen is on seem to be holding off nausea, but we seem to be running into problems where brain function is concerned. Oddly, this occasionally extends to me as well (or maybe I just like to have excuses...). Cases in point:
  • Last weekend Jen went shopping. She bought Natalie's much loved whole milk yogurt. Unfortunately, the plain and vanilla versions of this yogurt come in nearly identical containers. She bought vanilla. Being tired and not wanting to deal with stores, we tried it. Natalie refused to eat it.
  • Thursday after picking Natalie up from her babysitter, Jen tried to pick up milk. While they were in the store, she managed to lose the car key. As it was raining, she spent an hour sitting inside the store wrangling a tired, hungry, restless toddler until I could come rescue her with another key.
  • Last night, while we were getting ready to go to her stepfather's 80th birthday party, Jen answered the house phone. We have no idea where she put it when she was done. The battery is now dead, so the find handset feature won't work. Over 24 hours later, the phone is still MIA. It's a good thing we have another one.
  • Today Jen asked me to make cornbread. Somehow in the whole "how many batches?" conversation, and the distraction of a toddler, I measured four times as much honey into it. We have VERY sweet and slightly odd cornbread to go with our chili tonight.
  • This afternoon, Jen changed Natalie's post-nap poopy diaper and then carried it upstairs to de-poop and dump in the diaper pail. Moments later, I heard a call from upstairs. "Don't let Natalie wander around! I can't find the poop!" Luckily, that was found much more quickly than the phone.
  • This evening, as she returned from the grocery store, Jen was mid-comment about how she had really made sure that she got plain yogurt this time, when she looked down at the bag and swore. It was plain, but it was also nonfat.
And (should we be so lucky) things will only get crazier from here...

Friday, January 11, 2008

UPDATED AGAIN "Probably Boring" Update

Jenny asked me to let folks know that so far nothing much has happened. She's had intermittent contractions and tried just about everything under the sun to get things going but to no avail. Even the dreaded castor oil just made her miserably uncomfortable with no help to her labor.

Please send some "get the hell going" vibes to her uterus. I will keep you updated as I hear anything.

New information - 1/12
Jenny's fluid now has a yellowish/brown tinge, so they are going back to the birth center.

11:15 am
Jenny just called - the baby looked fine on the ultrasound and the midwives believe it's probably more bloody show. There might be a small amount of meconium in the amniotic fluid but it's not enough to be concerned about and is not affecting the baby. They have sent her home again. The best news is that she is 4 cm dilated so the midwives are optimistic that things may get moving soon.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Excuse the previous 'post': my phone got overzealous.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

One sac. Everything looking good. Next appointment in two weeks.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Big Brother (no, not that kind, the BAD kind)

ARGH! I am so pissed off! That site (you know, the one we love to hate - the cycle charting one with chat forums) has blocked us from posting. And our heinous crime? Trying to suggest a website where someone could buy cloth diapers. Even though I have seen other people do that, and the forum in which I was posting has a long list of web links in its own description (which includes the site I was suggesting). Goddamn censorship!

Jury duty. Very cranky. Cannot have CHILDREN'S scissors. Allowed to have children's scissors on AIRPLANE for god's sake! Can't sew w/o scis! Grr.

Monday, January 07, 2008

Plaid is Love

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

Second Beta

1500 at 18 dpo. Doubling time 1.27 days. Ultrasound a week from today. Is this really happening?


Whenever Natalie is on a bed, or anything even vaguely resembling a bed (e.g. a folded towel on the floor), she bounces up and down, saying:
Jump jump
Fall off
Bump head
Doctor said
No more monkeys
Last night and this morning she was heard singing:
Twinkle star
Howa wonner are
Uppa world high
Diamond inna sky
Twinkle star
Unfortunately, she will not perform either on request, so video is currently unavailable.